for all the anxious, ambitious girls (and women!) on earth
Inspired by Mama Gena and her School of Womanly Arts, a much-loved friend of mine challenged (coaxed) me into exchanging BGDs with her each morning.
X3. Here we go.
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I brag that I made wholewheat blueberry pancakes this morning and rocked some kiddie world. I really am the best mama, ever.
I brag that a searingly hot Seattle dude called me last night, all hot n’ bothered and wanting a piece of sweet Kelly-pie, and I said, “I’m not doing this with you. I don’t want to be the chick you call when you’re horny.” And it was no sacrifice because I’m firm about honouring my authentic self – and she’s a hot bitch who wants love or nothing.
I brag that next Sunday’s Sunday School for Sentences is going to be fucking fantastic.
I am grateful that yesterday, while I was pumping gas, Sophie rolled down the window and said, “Mommy, we just wanted to tell you something…We love you”.
I am grateful that I am unrelentingly loved by Julie Roads and Dave Doolin.
I am grateful that I found the right apartment for my family, and that our new living arrangement means I will be able to save money to take us to Africa next summer.
I desire that my Church boy goes away, sorts out his religious commitments, and finds a way to stand stronger and firmer in them. And while he’s doing that, I desire that he is unable to forget me. A little torment is good for the soul.
I desire the ben-wa’s to start writing query letters to national magazines. Because, dammit, I should be writing for them.
I desire sexy, juicy, love-every-day, committed-with-babies marriage. (To commence in the next 15 months.)
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Now you. Three of each, in the comments, right now. xoxoxo.
PS title of this piece inspired by “All the Anxious Girls on Earth” by Zsuzsi Gartner
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Braggarting
* I have lost over 30 pounds (the mindful and kind way), am rocking a new haircut and look damn hot these days. I know this by how I feel inside – sexy as hell.
* I have called a cease and desist to continuing a relationship that consistently demoralizes me and leaves me asking – why the fuck am I doing this (yet) again? And it isn’t hard this time.
Gratitudes (and attitudes)
* I am high in the sky grateful to be alive, in MY skin, finally zipping it up and feeling like I could live here forever
* My son-sun. Always and this morning, anxious to show me the Lego set he wants while chomping down his Cheerios: )
Desiring
* to continue writing and improving (both as a being and a writer)
* real warm sweet hot soaring love – the tight pants and sweater kind…And a family. Full on.
xo Elana
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Kelly Diels
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on September 22nd, 2010 at 11:14 am
@Elana, you make me yelp out loud. mwah.
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A challenge I need, thanks.
I brag that I am making healthy whole wheat pizza with fresh garden veggies for dinner, and it will kick ass.
I brag that my second go at a year of self hair cuts is looking pretty damn cute.
I brag that I am truly reinventing myself in midlife and loving it.
I am grateful for a 25 year relationship with a man that taught me unconditional love exists.
I am grateful for really good health.
I am grateful for the opportunity to begin a business and start over.
I desire that we be free from financial uncertainty within a year.
I desire that my work allows me to travel.
I desire that my work allows me to teach and heal others.
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Kelly Diels I love ya! You are an awesome possum
Glad I found this blog.
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I think this would do me good this morning, soo…
brags:
-with the exception of this morning, I’ve been doing yoga + exercising every morning without fail for the last three weeks or so
-I’ve got an 11 day streak going at 750words.com! (Ok, I’m easily satisfied.)
-I’ve also been much better about meditating lately, although I’ve slacked off the last day or two.
grateful:
-that my kitty is mostly healed from getting fixed and the process was (again, mostly) without incident.
-that my grandma doesn’t care that her granddaughter is a little weirdo & regularly sends me “I love you” emails
-that our plant in the living room hasn’t died, despite us not watering it near as regularly as we should!
desire:
-ugh, for my headache and cramps to go away!
-to sleep better tonight than I did last night
-for our financial situation to settle down some over the next few months, which it’s looking like it will, so yay!
xoxo
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Kelly Diels
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on September 22nd, 2010 at 9:31 pm
@Michelle, LOVELOVELOVE
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It’s hard to do this! (too much anti-girl societal conditioning?
Brags: (1) cooking from scratch (with veggies!) and kids love it. sometimes. (2) people who knew me long ago remember liking me enough to call about current jobs. (3) auditioned for (and made it on!) sublime church choir
Gratefuls: (1) Yoga, yoga, yoga! (2) yoga teacher takes newsletter writing in barter for yoga
(3) #1 Son, who lost his love of school during troubled 5th grade – is regaining it in 6th grade
Desires: (1) JOB! (2) more sizzle (3) and world peace (wait, that’s for something else . . . ) uh, how about more happy dances?
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Kelly Diels
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on September 22nd, 2010 at 9:31 pm
@ami | 40daystochange, I had the same initial reaction – but it passes with practice, and THAT might be the most important part of the exercise. Methinks.
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* I brag that I am a fuckin’ kick ass coach who loves people to distraction!
* I brag that I get more done in my pj’s at home than most corporate types do in their suits!
* I brag that I wrote a beautiful love letter to myself this week and moved myself to tears.
* I am grateful that I have amazing friends who frequently tell me they love and appreciate me (Leisa Ashbaugh, Anne Melnyk, Karen Paritee)
* I am grateful that after a very long time of being single I found my guy (or he found me, not sure) and we’ve just celebrated 1 year of marriage
* I am grateful that I get to work/play whenever, however I want!
* I desire intoxicating expressions of love in my marriage
* I desire the book I’ve been carrying inside me for 40-some years to come pouring out of me
* I desire totally loving myself the way I love others, no holds barred, come what may
xoS
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Kelly Diels
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on September 22nd, 2010 at 9:32 pm
@Sandi, JUICY. (appropriate word for you and your endeavours, yes?) xo
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Sandi
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on September 23rd, 2010 at 11:13 am
@Kelly Diels, YES!!
xoS
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It’s what I do.
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Kelly Diels
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on September 22nd, 2010 at 9:33 pm
@Dave Doolin, yes it is.
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I’m bragging because I took a chance on acupuncture, and I’m feelin’ like hot shit right now.
I’m bragging because I’m setting boundaries in my life, and it feels righteously powerful.
and, I’m bragging because I’m proud of myself for taking responsibility for my life and creating the changes I needed.
I’m grateful for the determination & fight I learned from my family.
I’m grateful for all the blogs like these that have broadened my perspective and felt like the comfort of a Girl’s Night Out when I really needed it.
I’m grateful for my newest friend, who has displayed a strength and unconditional love I’ve never seen before.
I desire a man to share juicy, unconventionally hot love, vulnerable conversations and the changes of life with.
I desire to take myself to Oregon for a life-changing vacation.
I desire to find a way to inspire women to have sexier, healthier lives . . . perhaps as a result of my trip to Oregon.
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@Jess, “righteously powerful.” Oh, we all need some of that…I’m inspired. Thank you.
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Brags:
- I’ve got a kicka$$ business idea that I can do on my own *and* I’ve been able to convince the powers that be that it’s worth supporting
- my butterflies make a difference
- I’m hot in a black tutu
Gratitude:
- for butterflies that appear when needed and are happy to be shared
- for awesome supportive tweeps (@yolandafacio, @randibuckley @violetzombie and so many more)
- for the love of my perfect soul mate
- for Beauty who makes herself known to me so frequently
Desires:
- financial stability. For reals this time.
- continued health and abundance in my family (yes, including Diva ‘Cuda, Otto and Mu)
- an amazing ring that looks surprisingly perfect on my hand – which will be my first unnecessary purchase when we achieve that first desire
Darling, this is a GREAT exercise. Thank you!
Hugs and butterflies,
~T~
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Ah, such fun. JUST the exercise to get this day off to a fine start. Thank you, Kelly!
I brag that I am a loved and loving Mama (and am grateful for this, every single day…even when we don’t see “eye to eye”)
I brag (and am grateful) that I am surrounded by people who believe in me, making it oh-so-much easier to believe in myself. Including (and especially), my husband.
I brag, shamelessly, about my mad coaching skills (and am grateful for the incredible clients who hire me who GET that this is important, transformative work…’cuz it is work…and so very worth it).
I am grateful that my desires list is short (life is pretty damned sweet).
I desire some peace about the decision to have/not another child. Deeply desire this.
I desire to truly live up to what is revealing itself to be my life’s calling: spreading my Mom’s mantra: “don’t postpone joy”. Gaining on this one…joyfully.
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“I brag that next Sunday’s Sunday School for Sentences is going to be fucking fantastic.”
you know it is. boom.
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Brags 1)that I have learned this whole website, social media stuff and everything that exists online for me and my shop only since January 2010.
2)that I have finished my first original needlecraft designs for Victoria House and they are almost ready for purchase.
3)hmmmm this is hard … Had to leave this till last and come back and am still struggling, always feel I am juggling but then consider overall I am a damn good friend, wife, mummy, daughter, sister and boss.
Gratefuls 1) I have a happy, healthy, loving munchkin.
2) I have a wonderful hubby and supportive relationship.
3) I have a business I am passionate about that makes other people happy.
Desires 1)Needlecraft lovers will love my designs and want to purchase and make them for themselves and people they love.
2)Another munchkin.
3)My bestie M will find a loving happy supportive relationship.
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PS give Church Boy the “gift of missing you”.
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[...] Dave: Commit to who you are, the right men will show up. They will even become attractive. Kelly: This is why I keep fucking up: because I’m not honest ‘bout who I am. I want love or nothing. [...]
Bragging…
I am fast and smart and funny and kind. People like me. They really really do.
Gratituding…
Work. It is very, very good right now.
Friends. New ones. Old ones.
My boy. He may be 25 and a little lost but God. I love him and like him so much.
Desiring…
Love. Period. Worthy. of me. with someone brilliant, sexy, sexual, giving and kind. Who is ok/great to look at.
And travel. with that love.
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I brag that I went to boot camp this morning, even though I was not feeling well.
I am greatful for the way my sister talked to me this morning. We were both filled with love. (she had a baby 3 days ago).
I desire to find my true love, whom I would desire to have children with, and I want that to be mutual.
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I brag that I embraced moving 700 miles away on a week’s notice to make a change that I needed to make and take a chance I needed to take.
I brag that I am done with not good enough.
I brag that I am smart and funny and charming and totally hot. Most of the time.
I am grateful for feeling the strangest (strange as in uncommon) peace lately, as I settle into a new job in the hometown I left years ago.
I am grateful for my family’s giving support even though moving meant not seeing them every day anymore.
I am grateful for my dog’s wagging tail of greeting whenever I walk through the door, even if I was only gone for a minute.
I desire hot, steamy, crazy, monkey sex that is a part of a healthy, mature, nurturing, non-toxic love relationship.
I desire, at the moment, pepperoni pizza with artichoke hearts.
I desire a tropical vacation filled with frozen fruity drinks and thick mystery novels.
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